Every Step is a Prayer

even when two of them are backwards. or even when there is nowhere to go at all. running, for me is spiritual. and i haven't been able to run for a week. the state of my feet is the reason i can't run. in my stillness i have time for silent contemplation. the state of my feet is a lot like the state of my soul... i may have run 5,000 miles already, but there is so much further to go. it's easy at first, but the farther you travel, the harder you have to work. the more pain you have to run through, the more there are days when all you can do is put one foot in front of the other. and there will come a point, when you can see where you want to go, but won't be able to unless you heal the hurt first. an injury is preventing me from running. i think it's a stress fracture. a gradual wearing away of the bone after too much constant use, after running too far too soon (16 miles last weekend). sometimes i push too hard, hard enough to hurt myself. i love the world as it is. but i have a lot to work on..... sorry for my elementary meanderings. i just needed to get this out. maybe if i expose the pain, i can heal enough to move again. (which means i might have to be brave enough to say a lot more later)